Discomfort Is The Currency Of Your Dreams

If I could go back in time and advise myself as I began residency, I’d tell myself that “Discomfort is the currency of your dreams.”

Life Coach Brooke Castillo imparted this wisdom in a podcast interview with a fellow entrepreneur, Amy Porterfield. This idea is aptly applied to medical training, which is notoriously tough. There is a lot to learn in a short period of time, from medical knowledge to navigating difficult conversations. The experience gained in training forms the groundwork for a medical career; it’s not supposed to be easy.

Unfortunately, our tendency to resist or dwell on discomfort can make it worse, increasing the associated negative feelings, and wasting precious time. Instead, consider: if you’re uncomfortable in medical training, that means you’re doing it right. If I could advise my younger self, I’d tell her to lean into the discomfort as she learned each of the following:

Patient care

As you learn to care for patients, there are plenty of mistakes to be made. Sometimes you’ll beat yourself up over an error; other times you’ll be reprimanded by a superior. You’ll be corrected by everyone from the Department Chair to the janitorial staff. As uncomfortable as this can be, accepting feedback is part of your job as a trainee. The senior residents and attendings you admire have spent years honing their skills. To achieve their results, they have endured discomfort, and grown through the process, to achieve the dream of helping their patients. Accepting discomfort as part of the learning process will help you to avoid augmenting your own pain.

When you struggle to get an order set to the pre-operative nurse through the new electronic medical record (EMR) despite many attempts, for example, you may want to bang your head against the desk. You could worry about why you have trouble with these order sets, while your peers seem to get it just fine. Rather than avoiding the EMR or asking someone else to do the task for you, get extra help with Information Technology (IT) if needed. Learn to work through the disconnect in workflow, communicating with the nurse, even when you feel like giving up. Navigating these kinds of challenges in a high-stakes, time-constrained, or frustrating environment can mold you into a better doctor if you let it.

Self-directed learning

After you have half-jogged, half dragged yourself around the hospital all day, when you arrive home, crashing on the sofa may seem like the next logical step. But no matter how much you’ve learned during the day, it’s not enough to become a solid physician. You need to leverage time outside the hospital too. This will often involve leaving home, securing some caffeine, and reading until you’re bleary-eyed.

Tomorrow, on rounds, the surgeons may “pimp” you on the five most common causes of pancreatitis, and it’ll be scary. If you can’t rattle them off on the spot, it can feel like public humiliation. The Socratic method is uncomfortable, but it’s preparation for the moment you are asked the same question by an anxious mother. The toiling and testing you endure will allow you to answer her with confidence, and explain the next steps in her son’s work-up. Her relief and comfort is your reward. In this way, pushing yourself to learn all you can is the currency of your dreams.

Becoming part of the team

Effectively working within a healthcare team involves a steep learning curve. Immersed in a new culture, you learn how each member contributes, from nursing to ancillary staff. There is a communication style unique to the environment, which you must hone as a physician and leader. There is a diplomacy to working with those around you, as you learn and make mistakes in training (and beyond). During this process, your ego will be tossed about, like a little sailboat on a stormy sea. This is normal. Learning team dynamics and their countless nuances is a challenge.

Humility is everything. For example, while interviewing a patient, you realize you missed a key part of their history, changing the conversation between you. Rather than acting like you knew something you didn’t, or blaming a colleague, you can quickly acknowledge the feeling of unpreparedness, and move on, working to rectify any gaps in knowledge.

When you inevitably order the wrong medication or dose, fix it right away, and realize that to err is human. Being wrong is the price of entry in medicine, and your team can help alert you when this occurs. In fact, when all staff feel empowered to speak up regarding potential medical errors, it makes the care environment safer.

Patient communication

Communicating with patients is a worthy challenge, especially in times of duress. When health fails, or devastation occurs, we help guide the patient and their loved ones through it. Navigating these situations requires developing a skill-set. Sometimes displaced feelings of grief, confusion, and anger fly our way. When this occurs, stepping into the discomfort can help you become a compassionate and masterful communicator. As a budding physician, this work is the currency of your dreams.

Self-care

Accepting discomfort as a part of the training process is an act of self-care in itself. Doing so will help you move through training with resiliency and agency. When you view discomfort as a tool for growth, rather than something inflicted upon you, there is no need to dwell on how things should be different. Like the soreness that comes from working a muscle, you can feel the burn of fatigue, and accept the discomfort that lasts days later, knowing you’re getting stronger. There are countless ways to care for yourself in training, and I recommend practicing some, like those described in this tongue-in-cheek beauty guide for interventional radiologists.

I sometimes catch myself avoiding uncomfortable moments, or procrastinating on tasks I need to accomplish. The work of a doctor can be complex, mundane, grueling, or joyful, depending on the day. Sometimes it can be all these things at once. Embracing discomfort in training will allow you to become the best physician you can be. You’re the driving force when you realize that discomfort truly is the currency of your dreams.

Tired Super Heroine is an interventional radiologist and toddler mom in Southern California, writing about career, lifestyle, and financial empowerment for physicians. The blog can be found at tiredsuperheroine.com

 

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Advice For New Physicians: Thriving During Your Residency Odyssey

Even though my own internship was a decade ago, I vividly remember the transition from student to resident. Residency was monumental in my path to becoming a physician. There were obvious changes; people now called me “doctor,” my misshapen short white coat was upgraded to a comforting full length one, and I was often the first one paged to respond to patient problems. Coupled with the positive aspects though, I also faced some challenges. I struggled with depression, my relationship with my girlfriend was strained, and I felt overwhelmed as I contemplated switching specialties after my second year (from ophthalmology to internal medicine).

Despite the stress, I look back with fond recollection and a realization that the tremendous experiences and camaraderie can never again be replicated. As a resident, I was privileged to help take care of an underserved population in New York City, learned from inspiring teachers, and worked hard alongside talented co-residents (some of whom will undoubtedly be lifelong friends, and one of whom I married).

This is my advice for thriving during your own residency odyssey:

Take Care of Yourself.

This sounds obvious but not enough residents make this a priority. News headlines and blogs are exploding with discussions about physician burnout (and sadly also the prevalence of physician suicide). It’s imperative that we begin investing deliberate effort into physician wellness. My four cups of coffee per day, depression-fueled binging on cookies at midnight, lack of exercise, and suboptimal sleep did not make for good health. By the end of residency I weighed nearly 15lbs more than at the start. The simple fact is that if you don’t take care of yourself, then you won’t be able to effectively take care of your patients. Whatever challenges you face, you must seek help from loved ones, peers and professionals to actively manage them. Too many highly-functional intelligent professionals try to power through obstacles and then one day shatter because they refuse to tackle problems in the manner as they would advise their patients.

Be Interested in Others.

This starts with your patients. Mrs S is not just “some demented lady in bed 3.” Taking time to truly learn about the patient will help you maintain empathy, and get you through the brutal paperwork, bureaucracy and inefficiency that is omnipresent in healthcare. This attitude should also extend to your coworkers, nurses, techs, and all the non-physician professionals that make healthcare possible. You’ll have to interact with these nice folks for at least a year (and maybe 7 years if you become a neurosurgeon). Finally, learn their names and introduce yourself. As Dale Carnegie teaches “a person’s name is the sweetest sound to that person.”

Make Time to Learn.

Realize it takes time and effort to acquire knowledge. A brilliant critical care attending once barked at me “reading UpToDate is not the only reading you need to do.” I scoffed at the time because I was looking for a quick-fix, but of course he was right. Making a sincere consistent effort to learn despite your difficult day is a real challenge. Did you do well in medical school and on Step 1, 2 and 3? Congratulations, but now all of that is behind you. Having a baseline knowledge is a prerequisite but not the end point. Remember that you’re not being judged by your performance on a multiple choice test anymore… real patient lives are on the line.The best residents I’ve seen begin reading board review materials as they go along during their training, rather than trying to cram in learning at the end. Malcolm Gladwell notes that 10,000 hours of “deliberate practice” are needed to become world-class in any field.

Don’t Abandon Your Other Passions.

Repeat after me: I will have a life outside of being a physician. You of course already know that there are no guarantees in life and time only moves in one direction. I am telling you very frankly that physicians can become patients at any moment, and that the future is actually quite uncertain. During residency I made it my mission to go overseas during every single vacation I had. I ate a lot of instant noodles to save up for these adventures, but it was well worth it. I also made time every week to reunite with old friends for a relaxing dinner. Many people do make time for things they love, but there are a few that seem to never escape the pull of the hospital. These physicians seem to be at greater risk for burnout. Plus, neglecting the outside world doesn’t guarantee that you’ll be smarter or save more patients than if you step away to energize during your time off.  I implore you to not abandon your other passions for your medical work. Make sure you live all aspects of your life.

Learn the Rules.

Every place you will ever work will have its own culture and set of rules. If you’ve made it this far you’ve probably realized that healthcare can feel like a dog-eat-dog world; with a hierarchy and rituals that must be respected. Dr A likes labs presented a certain way, Dr Z likes interns to be at the front and center of case presentations, but Dr Q wants you all to shut up, be invisible and listen to the attending. All of it is irrelevant in the end, and yet all of it is vitally important for your survival in training. Millions have come before you through this gauntlet. Learn the rules of the game, and you will thrive.

Realize That Criticism Is Not Personal.

When I was an intern, I responded to a rapid response that turned out to be a presyncopal episode in a patient that had just finished dialysis. I examined the patient, analyzed the labs, talked to the nursing staff, and initiated an appropriate plan (a small bolus of IV fluids). Immediately after I was finished, the private attending appeared and berated me in front of everyone. “You are the worst intern I have ever encountered!” I was frozen, I felt like crying, and I could feel my entire face quivering. What had I done that was so terrible? I knew I wasn’t encyclopedic in my medical knowledge but “the worst” seemed harsh. He was basically angry that I had touched “his patient” despite the fact that it was my job to go to rapid responses. Many will undoubtedly recall similar stories of people unloading their frustrations. You have little control over the personal lives or toxic personality traits of others. Learn from your mistakes, pay attention to actionable criticism from superiors, but don’t let random angry ramblings get you down.

Resolve to Be Better.

Having now worked as a hospitalist in a dozen different hospitals around the US – I’ve made it a goal to improve my interactions with coworkers. Despite this, I’ve had my momentarily despicable episodes. In one of my first attending jobs I became extremely irate with a nurse after she openly questioned my management in front of a patient’s family. I cut her off mid-sentence, presented her with the science, reiterated my sound treatment plan and then stormed off rather dramatically. However, I returned to the unit 10 minutes later to apologize for my actions. I remembered how horrible some of my residency interactions made me feel and realized that she was speaking out in the interest of the patient’s safety. I obviously should have acted differently. It takes conscious effort to not become that which you despise.

Remember Your Oath.

The Hippocratic Oath may have been conceived in ancient times, but it is still sacred and relevant. Every year the media is flooded by some inconceivable story of professionals doing bad things: scandals, billing fraud, unnecessary procedures, taking kickbacks… the list is endless. Strive hard to not to become one of these people. It’s bad for your career, it’s horrible for your family, and it is a complete waste of your talents and sacrifice.

I wish you well in your journey!

 

Varun Verma MD is a board-certified Internal Medicine physician who works as a hospitalist
Dr Verma


Varun Verma M.D.
is a board-certified internal medicine physician who practices as a hospitalist. He believes that healthcare is a human right, and has worked across the US and internationally in resource-limited settings. You can read more of his posts at his blog, and connect with him via Twitter or Facebook.